I’ve been in the workshop all day and the image above is from last night. I’ve completed my first designed chair. The image is from the “template making session” for the footrest to accompany the chair – my second drawn/designed piece of furniture – and today I’ve been rough cutting the pieces and started doing the joins.

To be honest; I’m exhaused!

For the first time all the pieces has been sawn in the same day and I’m prette close to assembly of the first side. Physically I can feel the challenge and I’ve been in a pretty bad mood most of the day.

I’ve made the most precise cuts ever and I feel that the “craft” part is moving in the right direction – fast – and I’m sure that I’ll be able to complete the footrest faster and better than ever before.

So whats my problem? Why am I in a bad mood?

The road to succes and “making it” seems very long, and over the last couple of weeks I’ve found other young designers on the Internet that has done marvelous work. How am I to compete? I have a full time job that requires even more time and I have a life that is more important than any piece of furniture. So why am I doing it and why does it matter so much?

First of all I think that it “restores” my feeling of masculinity and control. Its been hard to find motivation for the Gym but repeated sawing and physical work makes a positive difference on my body. At the same time I feel that I’m actually creating something both beautiful and useful – and at least working towards a dream that is mine.

But still – I’m unsure – at a crossroad – likely affraid to fail whatever road I travel – but I do feel passion and I do feel love…

My late night conclusion is obvious – there are no easy fixes and whatever road we chose to travel takes hard work. So no sudden cure – its obvious – its ok – its life – but its also a little annoying!